25 May 2013

If I were a movie

"Life's like a movie, write your own ending. Keep believing, keep pretending." - Jim Henson


If I were a movie, it'd be complicated, yet, to me, everything will be perfect, unmarred and I will have a happy ending, my very own happy ending; everything will go the way I want them to take place; well, it is my story. Yes, my fairytale.

I would look like Serena van der Woodsen: tall, thin, but maybe screw being blonde because I'd like to have alluring brown hair instead... mysterious looking, yet beautiful. I would then live the life of Clare Abshire as an artist who making paper sculptures for a living, "Miss-Look-But-Don't-Touch". How I meet prince charming will be just like how Noah Calhoun meets Allie Hamilton, he would climb up the Ferris wheel to speak to me, write me a letter each day for one year and he'd take me for a boat ride on the river, and show me a place filled with geese and swans. He would propose to me by getting down on one knee, saying all the right things, then lifting me up for a hug after I say yes, just like how Edward Cullen asked Bella Swan to marry him. Cheesy, but that proposal is literally classic, so clich├ęd......... so stainless.

20 May 2013

The little things that makes me happy

"Being happy isn't having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things." - Ann Brasheres


1. Being able to access all the social networking sites such as Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Keek, tumblr, Google+, Blogger, Skype, Foursquare, Pinterest... you name it. As long as there's 3G or WiFi.

2. Knowing that I am still young to do things like ride a roller-coaster (I have never that done before, maybe soon), bungee-jump, get a tattoo, walk along Yarra River, eat a dozen burgers at one go.

3. Trying out a new hobby. I recently did some watercolour painting and taught myself to play the ukelele. I can play a few songs, but I kinda suck at strumming. I just don't know how to strum yet.

4. Getting off work early.

5. Learning to be comfortable with uncomfortable situations. Making new friends, a new workplace or department, taking public transports to work, being surrounded by mandarin-speaking snoops.

6. Knowing that there are still some people out there who loves me for who I am, cares for me, appreciates me, admires me and who will always there for me when I need them, or want to see them.

7. That I had made it through that very awkward puberty phase: top braces with food that never fails to get stuck in between, pimples on my cheeks and broad forehead.

8. How my relationship with my parents has changed from being curfew prison guards to my best friends. (Yup, I can now do whatever the hell I want!)

9. Pretty clothes that fit, shoes that fit, rings that fit.

10. Brand new episodes of my favourite TV shows. How I Met Your Mother, Revenge, Once Upon A Time, Arrow, Sherlock, The Carrie Diaries, Elementary and the list of my favourites goes on.

11. Molten lava cake.

12. A really good cup of latte.

17 May 2013

Forgetting yesterday

"Change not only was inevitable, but usually brought its own rewards." - Nicholas Sparks


Things change, friends leave. Life does not stop for anyone. At such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or saying that we are not yet ready for these kind of things. Just one gesture, one person and one moment at a time. Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Let reality just be reality, however it wants to be.

6 May 2013

There was hope

"Even a child would think twice before touching a hot kettle once burned, but in Malaysia, 
we simply make new plans, and repeat the same old mistakes." - Brian Yap 


I was born here, I was brought up here. I have observed everything little thing that has been happening all around, but I refuse to say a word. I refuse to say anything, because I can't vote yet,  not eligible, not at that age to help make a change. But I want change, sadly, I didn't get any change. There was a chance for a change, there was hope for a transformation, but you guys decided it was all right to cheat (paying people to vote, bringing in extra bags of ballots via helicopter, the blackout, the Bangladeshis, also known as phantom voters) your way through everything. Macam tak malu langsung sial.

Do you know how embarrassing it is to say that I am a Malaysian? I'm more embarrassed and disappointed of my country than feeling angry. And everyone wonders why we never move forward, turning into a bloody third world country.