Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does.
Love is a battle, love is a war; love is growing up.
It is these hard times that can make or break a relationship.
It used to be so easy. I would go over anytime, he would too and we would spend all our time in the world together. But not anymore. I moved to KL when my parents left for Australia. It takes about 30 to 45 minutes for me to get his place or him to my place. I haven't said anything about the traffic jam yet. Hell, I hate it. Even the thought of it kills.
I hate the fact that I don't see him as much as I used to. Already with school, assignments and sometimes events. MY GOODNESS. I wish for high school love all over again. Much easier back then.
It isn't only the distance that is tearing us apart. I guess it is also the plans set aside for us, our interests and our family and friends. I'm not saying that our relationship can't last. I think it can.
He'll be off to US to continue his studies. And once I'm done, I'll be flying off to Australia to maybe continue my studies or.. I don't know. I'm not sure. All these thinking is giving me doubts. How is my relationship going to work? HOW IN THE WORLD DOES LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP WORKS? In movies, they will always somehow find their way back to each other. In real life, I guess not. In real life, I think if you're lucky, it'll work. If you're not, it won't work.
Well, I did managed 3 months. When he went off to do his National Service. It was crazy. We could only say a few words to each other every night. We didn't get to celebrate our birthdays and anniversary together. I only had his shirt to sleep with. For 3 months, 3 freaking months. How did I do it? No idea. I just did it. And it was horrible. Imagine this: US and Australia. Approximately 23100 km apart. The time difference. FML. I don't think I can do it. I don't think I can. I don't see anything good in having a LDR.
I love him so much. I will always love him. No matter all the arguments and fights, I still love him with all my heart. But................................ what do I do? How long must I wait? 6 years is already long. I have to wait longer to even be with him forever? I hate it. But you know what I need? ASSURANCE.