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Goodbye, Malaysia

I don't know how you say goodbye to whom and what you love. I don't know a painless way to do it.
It's difficult to say goodbye for good at any time or any place. This is a long goodbye, yet not time enough.

To myself: I know it hurts, it really really hurts. I know you've always thought that it's hard being left behind, and it's hard to be the one who stays, but this time, you've got it all wrong. Leaving is painful, leaving your whole life behind is painful; your home, your friends and your memories, everything. I know you never wanted it to be this way. F-ing hurts.

To the love of my life: Remember our sneaky dates; parks in BJ, the "jungle"? Remember you cycled all the way to Secret Recipe to get me three slices of cake for my birthday? Remember waking up to cows at Bagan Lalang? Remember Gunung Datuk; beautiful place, I hated the climb, don't ever bring me there again? Remember Pulau Redang; my fav trip? I miss it. I miss it all so much. It makes it all harder to leave. I'm hoping to make more memories with you in Auzzie.

To my college friends: You know who you are. I had the best college life with you guys. All the crazy times we had, the non-stop crap-talking, the sexual talks, the nasty remarks bout we'd make 'bout each other, I'm going to miss it all. All you crazy peepo. Thanks for being my friends, now my best friends. Thanks for taking care of me, thanks for being there for me when times were bad. I will miss our coffee dates, makan-makan times and birthday celebrations. I love you guys so freaking much. OH AND PLEASE do not forget to send me wedding invitations and a flight ticket back home plz tq.

To Shanna Banana: Please jaga all my shopping malls and my fav stores for me. Do all the shopping on my behalf. I love you so much, my sampat best friend I've known since we were little kids. Go find yourself a good man. Get married before I do. Find a great job, love it. Then when rich already call me ah, we go open up a boutique together-gether, OK?

To Quraisha: Sorry for leaving you behind baby girl. But I'm always here for you if you ever need anyone to talk to. I'm going to miss you so much. Thanks for being a great best friend. I love you baby girl. Do make a trip down to Auzzie!

I leave, and the leaving is so exhilarating, I know I can never go back.

p/s: And to the rest of you: I'm going to miss you guys and girls. Thanks for everything: all the good and the bad, definitely had made me to what I am today. Goodbye Malaysia. I will miss you. You'll always be home to me. Much love!