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Goodbye, Malaysia

I don't know how you say goodbye to whom and what you love. I don't know a painless way to do it.
It's difficult to say goodbye for good at any time or any place. This is a long goodbye, yet not time enough.

To myself: I know it hurts, it really really hurts. I know you've always thought that it's hard being left behind, and it's hard to be the one who stays, but this time, you've got it all wrong. Leaving is painful, leaving your whole life behind is painful; your home, your friends and your memories, everything. I know you never wanted it to be this way. F-ing hurts.
To the love of my life: Remember our sneaky dates; parks in BJ, the "jungle"? Remember you cycled all the way to Secret Recipe to get me three slices of cake for my birthday? Remember waking up to cows at Bagan Lalang? Remember Gunung Datuk; beautiful place, I hated the climb, don't ever bring me there again? Remember Pulau Redang; my fav trip? I miss it. I miss it all so much.…

Why being a woman in your 20s is the worst

Your 20s are simply the worst. Don't try to deny it.


A decade of change, whether you choose to admit it or not. You can legally drink. You get off your parent's health insurance. You (likely) graduate college. You have sex. A lot of sex. You party, even if you try to deny it. You know you do.
Shots. Drugs. Maybe, once in awhile, something harder than weed. A series of one-night-stands and transient girlfriends. Or possibly a long-term relationship. Perhaps your high school sweetheart, the two of you next to each other in your senior yearbook, embraced in one of those awkward poses that force you both to stare at the camera.
Then you pass the 21-year-old threshold, and you're inundated with family, aunts, cousins, friends already settled down. Where's the ring? When you get to say yes to the dress? When you do you think you'd plan to get pregnant?
What if you're just not ready? What if you're still stuck in school, having to take fewer credits to carry a jo…

Now I long for yesterday

I'm not half the girl I used to be.

Yesterday, all my trouble seemed so far away Now it looks as though they're here to stay Oh, I believe in yesterday
Suddenly, I'm not half the girl I used to be There's a shadow hanging over me Oh, yesterday came suddenly
Why he had to go I don't know he wouldn't say I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play Now I need a place to hide away Oh, I believe in yesterday
Why he had to go I don't know he wouldn't say I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play Now I need a place to hide away Oh, I believe in yesterday
Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm
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